May 14, 2011
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About Apologetics..
Why did God create man? To not be alone? Of Course.
To glorify Him? Did He? Why wouldn’t we? Why shouldn’t we? He’s our Father. He made us. He loves us because we are His. His creation. He loved us before we were here. He loved us as a mother loves the child in her womb. And He KNEW us as a mother knows the child who’s heart will break. And as the mother who knows her child may break the hearts of others. And He created us anyway.
Isn’t that a little selfish? For Him to want us to glorify Him? Who doesn’t want to be recognized for gifts. For the creation of a beautifully fragile work of art. For many creations, built to strenghten His Work of Art.
How then are we supposed to be selfless? Because we weren’t made to be just “self”.
If He is a jealous God, why is it a sin for us to be jealous? He is jealous as a Husband is for His Wife. He is jealous the way a Father is of the Daughter that’s dating the memory of the boy He knows. Do you know? We were created in His image. We know that jealousy. That jealousy is not a sin. It’s the jealousy of a loving God. That does not want us to be jealous of what is not ours. But to be grateful for what is already ours. What has been given to us by Him.
If man was created in His image, then why is man imperfect? Why did He create us imperfectly? Why give us free will and flesh and then deem them sinful? Why does He judge us, if He created us this way? He didn’t create us imperfectly. He made us incomplete. Only perfectly created to fit together. Individually we are incredibly fragile. The more we work together to become whole, the stronger we’ll be. Each of us is a strand made of diamond. Breakable, but sharp. The more we break, the sharpness slips away. This is done of our own choice(s). Choices that knock against the next diamond strand that may have fallen away.
Why does God allow free will? Because He is not a cosmic rapist. My favorite answer. I can’t remember the name of the book. But I remember where I found it. In the church’s book store. During the service I wasn’t able to make it to because I couldn’t stop crying to put my frickin’ makeup on. And I know He didn’t care about the makeup, and was glad I’d tried to come home.
To give us a choice? Well, yeah.. A choice to love. Him and eachother. The two greatest commandments. “Love Me, Love Eachother.”
Why give us/allow us have choices/temptations that lead to our own and others’ demise/destruction? We are intelligent – another gift. And apart from Him. Apart from eachother. We are brilliantly self/mass-destructive.
Why not just abolish sin and temptations? Are sin and temptations necessary to free will? Sin and temptations will be destroyed. I don’t know. I have no idea. Surely they aren’t necessary to free will..
Will we not have these choices (free will) in Heaven? Why do we have them now? It is done. You have the choice. Reject or accept Him and His Family. Sin and temptations are being and will be finally destroyed. As for free choice, if it must be taken away, please also take with it the desire to do what You wouldn’t approve of. Take the memory, the desire, and all of this flesh. It ties me down. It hurts, aches, lusts, and is just altogether incredibly inconvenient.
If He is omniscient & omnipresent, if He knows when, why, and how we’re going to succeed/fail/live/die, why create us in the first place? See answer to first and second questions.
Why create a person He knows is destined for Hell? Why create/allow the creation of anyone that He already knows will disappoint Him? He didn’t. “For God loved the world in this way: He gave His One and Only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world that He might condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. Anyone who believes in Him is not condemned, but anyone who does not believe is already condemned, because he has not believed in the name of the One and Only Son of God.”
I understand pieces of this. If I sent my son to go get the rest of my children, to go tell them the truth and tell it like it is. And they rejected us, by rejecting the Truth my child was delivering in love for them. I made them, and guided them, myself. And provided every opportunity and path.. And they fell away, refusing to listen to what I’d put inside of them. He is HIM. He is me. Just like my children are me – a part of me. Incomplete without me. And I am incomplete without them, all three of my own children. Because He MADE us this way. Right there. He’s there. He didn’t make us to be alone. He made us to be with Him. With eachother. All together. All of us. *Insert Barney song, lol.
But I also believe He wants us ALL. He said that. And then He sent His Son to tell us the same damn thing.
How do we know if we’re predestined for Heaven or Hell? He didn’t make Hell for us.
Why create Hell if He is loving and forgiving? How does the creation of Hell fit in with scriptures that say He is loving/forgiving? Hell is for sin and temptation. And for those who can’t stand/accept letting them go.
Why create Satan? Did He love Satan? Would He not be able to forgive Satan? If all we have to do to get to Heaven, is believe in Jesus; wouldn’t Satan be allowed in Heaven? I’m pretty sure he believes in Jesus. Satan believes in sin and self. He created temptation to withdraw us, mislead us. The Father of Lies. He twisted the beauty of desire. And the beauty of Truth. And consequently the beautiful simplicity of the desire for Truth. He has created and embraced chaos, and cannot be allowed to contaminate the New Kingdom with it all.
Why didn’t He come Himself to be crucified? Why would He send His Son? How can His Son be Him at the same time? It wasn’t Jesus’ will to die. - ”Not my will, but Yours be done.” Jesus felt the pull of His flesh, the desperation of all the sin that was about to fall on Him. He sweat blood, because His flesh was about to bear every sin, every rape, every neglection of lost parents that had never been shown or accepted His Truth, the genocides, the heart-wrenching loss of so many children. His children… He felt the separation from His Father at the cross, until He let go of His own flesh.. So that we would understand how completely we would be separated, if we chose to honor our flesh instead of Him.
Maybe? I don’t know. But it feels right. And wrong. And heartbreaking. And I still wonder.. Will I always be a mess in this flesh?
